I have some real work to do. I knew it full well when I was eating that foot-long meatball sub from Subway today.
I can’t help but notice that when I am feeling any sort of negative emotion, I eat like there’s no tomorrow. I don’t eat to sustain my body; instead, I choose food to make myself feel better about not having/taking control of that particular situation.
My reason for the sub sandwich? After much thought, the sandwich is directly correlated to a woman in my life who is having marital trouble and is crossing over moral lines with no regard to who she is hurting. She is affecting me and the relationship I am trying to build with my boyfriend (they work together) and, while I trust him completely, I don’t trust her. I thought of her as a friend before, before I knew what kind of person she was/is; however, when I found out that she tried to put the moves on him a couple of months before she set he and I up for a date, I about lost it. I knew she had cheated on her husband before that time, and is currently doing so with yet another man, but to be so close to it really torks me off.
She and I had a discussion about laying off calling him 24/7 (she was calling him more than me!) and I thought it was settled. She continues to cross the line, by asking him for a ride home from work and asking to borrow his car. It also angers me that she continues to lie to everyone around her, and provide selective information to those who aren’t in a position to make an accurate judgement. My blood is boiling right now……….
I could go on forever about this “lady”, but I better not. Suffice it to say I need to start walking instead of eating a foot-long sandwich to express my negative emotions.
